Picking Up Where I Left Off

I go through these spells, where sometimes I just don't feel like writing. Perhaps it's because I try to keep myself so occupied, that at times I loose sight of what I was doing or what I needed to get done. It's like I zone out into my own world and poof! There I go, lost in the moment and onto something new. With little or no realization that I had something else left to do. Poof! There I go again.

So, I had my MRI on February 20th, a super early morning appointment and a much needed test to see what was going on with my memory. I saw my doctor a week later, and he scheduled a consult for me to meet with a Neurologist and a Neuro-psychotherapist. The Neurologist would be able to tell me just what was going on with my back and the numbness in my right leg, and the neuro-psychotherapist would be able to figure out what was going on with my memory problems. When I saw my doctor, he told me that I had black dots on the MRI scan of my brain. These black dots were scarring from the total body radiation that I had in preparation of my stem cell transplant. How would this affect my memory? Dr. Parker told me that 3 things could happen as a result of this new finding. The scarring could: a) go away and have no effect on me, b) get worse and I would have to go on alzheimer's medications, or c) would stay the same.

The rest of the day was good, it was just a little discouraging to hear that I have a small medical condition as a result of the radition. But when I look at it, I mean really look at it, It isn't that bad. I mean it could be worse - like getting another type of cancer. - But knock on wood -that shouldn't happen. :)